THE US IN TRUST
For some unknown reason, that thought popped into my head in the middle of the night last night and kept running around my mind like a broken record.
In the morning, I was awakened by a phone call telling me that a 38-year old woman I knew had become seriously ill without warning, was on life support and not expected to live. The news shook me to my core. I called a Prayer Line for support for the woman, her husband and myself.
Then I began contemplating … about life and death and the US in TRUST.
In recent months, I have become increasingly aware of the fact that I have some major issues … deeply-rooted issues … around the idea of trust and for any number of reasons tend for the most part … Not to trust … myself or anything/anyone else for that matter.
The result is to always be filled with a certain sense (sometimes more, sometimes less) of doubt … uncertainty … separation … to never actually feel that I walk through life with any sense of surefootedness but rather cloaked in this wobbly, shaky, isolated, tentative feeling. Just another way of saying FEAR, I guess.
And I can cloak myself in that feeling if I choose. I am not alone … unless I
choose to see it that way. I do not have to live from a base of fear and uncertainty … unless I forget to remember the Truth. And it really is not a very complicated thing to do … to shift my perception … to refocus my gaze. It can be done in a moment … in the “blink of an eye.” But at the same time … it is not always such an easy thing to do either … with this life as it is … with all the challenges it brings.
But do it I can … do it we can … and do it we must … it would certainly seem to be God’s will for us in the first place …
And although the world at large seems to be very much in that wobbly, tottering isolated position at the present time … as each one of us … one by one … moment by moment … remembers the US in TRUST … we can all relax just a bit more … let go just a bit more … and the world can begin to be a lighter, brighter, more surefooted place for all of US.
©2011 Susan Schanerman